31 August 2011

Why.


2024 Wednesday 31 August 2011

Why does this happen?

Why do I do this?

I don't want to do or say things to make Ezra sad. One sentence can change a whole conversation if taken the wrong way. I don't want to be misunderstood. I don't want the things I say to make him sad. Why do I keep doing this? Even though it's an accident, it can be prevented. But then he doesn't talk. I know something's wrong but he won't tell me. I don't want to MAKE him, but I want to know. I know 90% of the time it's my fault, because of something stupid I've said. He tells me all the time that he'd rather hear my honest answer than something sugarcoated. Well, I feel the same way, Ezra. If something is wrong, please tell me so I can fix it. I didn't mean to make you feel bad, and I feel like shit everytime I do. You think not telling me what's wrong is helping me, preventing me from being sad. Well, it's not. I get sad because I made you sad, and I get even more sad when you don't tell me when you're sad. I just want to make you happy, you make me happy. I'm so sorry I keep doing this... I'm not doing it on purpose. Let me fix it. I'm sorry. I love you so much.

-Elle

10 August 2011

TI-82

1809 Wednesday 10 August 2011

Star Trek is on. Aw yeah.

I've been at Ezra's house since the 3rd. He and his dad picked me up from my house. I love it here, besides the mega-allergies. And his family likes me, which is good. :D It's going to suck when he has to go to school. :(

Mom texted me the other day asking if I was ready to come home yet. I was like "lolnope." She doesn't believe anyone can put up with me for this long lol.

Food time.
-Elle

01 August 2011

Skypecrafting

0012 Monday 01 August 2011

Been playing Minecraft and talking on Skype with Ezra, Nick, and Logan practically every night for the past week-ish. We've been working on "Bro World." Which is nice. I like it. We've also been playing obstacle courses. I fail at ladder jumps. Super fail. I tend to give up when I'm frustrated, but I don't need to. Right now Nick is trying to figure out what's wrong with the server.

I had Arby's today. For the second time in my life. It was delicious.

Shawn's being a mega-douchebag. He's so dumb. He is really dumb. Fo' real.

I'm writing out sheet music for "hal4," which is a really pretty song in Minecraft.

I don't know what else to write about right now.

I love you, Ezra Gray.
-Elle